Staying in stasis will cause me regrets my whole life

I should have gone to a regular college. But I joined a distance college with crappy weekend classes because it strained my nerves too much to be in public for long periods of time in those days. And because I was too worried about my back. It was complacence on my part with life long regrets about it. It's like you know eating too much will make you fat but you still eat. I should have gone to a regular college. I would have been with all those lovely college girls even if I probably wouldn't have talked with them. At least I would have caught their lovely sights every day instead of being imprisoned in the four walls of my room and masturbating off to online pornography. For six years my life was stunted, retarded, dysfunctional...I was wallowing in my own vomit. And my mother didn't push me towards betterment. Maybe she was too tired from my previous failures. I am sick of the legacy of those 6 years. Since late 22 I started worrying about turning old. Who thinks such things when they're 22? My mentally sick self did. Those worries persist till now. I should have been normal and gone out much mixing with people. My life's been really sick. I've been dysfunctional. I don't particularly like my life. Every few years it becomes worse. I was born to suffer it seems.

Stasis and complacence are the most terrible things. If I had moved when I wasn't liking my situation and gone to the psychologists, and listened to them, I would have been more contented today. But I destroy myself by being inertial, staying at one place and doing things like biting my nails while staring into the air, or some more icky things.