Saturday, August 8, 2009
Not sleepy and practicing my English!
I am not sleepy. Well, I am sleepy actually, but I am too depressed to sleep. Besides I want to catch some time alone in front of the PC with others sleeping. I was reading my previous posts and boy, do they seem to have grammar errors. Any way, this is hardly any thing to talk about. This is the closest to a daily diary and I also get to practice my English, so there.
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
I hate IGNOU
I really hate it and I hate all the people out of whose fear I took admission into it. Every semester is a danger of not having daily classes or any classes at all and instead staying inside the four walls of my room going crazy. This has happened for 6 years now and 4 years out of those 6 made me crazy and regretful. That's the freaking legacy of IGNOU.
When I was in BCA, all I knew was people doing jobs or regular colleges did IGNOU's BCA on the side and they would only attend tuitions in the evening, so I skipped it. The money was a factor too. But there were tuitions in the morning and the ambience was like a real college because all the students weren't doing any thing else regular. What a big miss!
So for 1 year I somehow hobbled along with those students completing my BCA and made friends too. But regrets always hung in my mind, big regrets. And I had even regular MCA classes for the last 6 months. But now what happens? It's the same freaking story again of students not wanting to attend classes. So I am left in uncertainty, screaming inside the four walls of my room. What a crappy university with its crappy students. Takes you ages to make sense of it and by that time it's bye-bye time. It's like missing 10 years worth of Diwali, Christmas, birthdays and every other celebratory occasion for a kid and regretting it when you grow up. It's so depressing. And the only reason it happened was because fucking kids mocked me for being fat and looking stupid in school which ultimately through its manifestation made me start staying indoors for the last 8 years. Thank you very much kids and people in general for mocking me and talking behind my back. I just want to go bald and become a Buddhist monk or something...yeah, that sounds like a good idea. At least I will achieve something then and help others.
It's such a sad life. I hope those kids and grown ups who mocked me get ignored to death to the point of hanging themselves.
When I was in BCA, all I knew was people doing jobs or regular colleges did IGNOU's BCA on the side and they would only attend tuitions in the evening, so I skipped it. The money was a factor too. But there were tuitions in the morning and the ambience was like a real college because all the students weren't doing any thing else regular. What a big miss!
So for 1 year I somehow hobbled along with those students completing my BCA and made friends too. But regrets always hung in my mind, big regrets. And I had even regular MCA classes for the last 6 months. But now what happens? It's the same freaking story again of students not wanting to attend classes. So I am left in uncertainty, screaming inside the four walls of my room. What a crappy university with its crappy students. Takes you ages to make sense of it and by that time it's bye-bye time. It's like missing 10 years worth of Diwali, Christmas, birthdays and every other celebratory occasion for a kid and regretting it when you grow up. It's so depressing. And the only reason it happened was because fucking kids mocked me for being fat and looking stupid in school which ultimately through its manifestation made me start staying indoors for the last 8 years. Thank you very much kids and people in general for mocking me and talking behind my back. I just want to go bald and become a Buddhist monk or something...yeah, that sounds like a good idea. At least I will achieve something then and help others.
It's such a sad life. I hope those kids and grown ups who mocked me get ignored to death to the point of hanging themselves.
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